Kids

I look to my left and all I see is toys, gold fish crumbs, and my childs favorite blanket, I look to my right I see dishes, clothes and more toys.

The messes are everywhere, and so is my mind.

Is it really worth it to live in destruction constantly?

I used to thrive on a clean and organized home, I was that girl who said "my house will NEVER look like those peoples homes that are always a mess" but here I am looking around and it is exactly the same.

I have to laugh at it sometimes, I work work work all day and it takes them 20 seconds to undo it all.

 I have to give it to them they are experts in mess making.

Haha

Most of you who are reading this already know how hard it is.

I am with you, I struggle more then I ever imagined I would.

I knew from a young age that I wanted to be a mom and that was what I was meant to be, but I had no idea how hard it would be.

I could clean all day long and it would still be a mess, right ladies? hahaha

So why do it?

If I looked around my apartment and all I saw was a perfectly put together home with no toys no food crumbs and no finger prints on everything, it would feel so empty.

Without those enormous spirits, my life would be utterly empty.

I cry thinking about losing them ever, and you know you would too.

Do I sometimes want to scream and cry at the same time? Sadly, pretty frequently.

They test me daily to see just how far they can push me before they slowly pull me back off the edge.

For example, I had thrown a few chicken nuggets in the microwave for my on the go snack I came in ready to grab them and my son turns back to me glowing, standing on a chair to reach the microwave, and says "Mommy I'm cooking your nuggets for you!!" I look to see the microwave currently at 1:36 left, It took everything in me to not get angry.

I did of course have to tell him to not play with the microwave without daddy or mommy in the future but I gladly stomached the dehydrated chicken nugget for that sweet boy who always sees me making him his lunch and just wanted to help, Those moments you just have to look at your child and say thank you, because just as you are doing your best so are they.

They don't want you to yell at them, they don't want to make you cry, though at times it seems that way.
Making messes are much more fun then cleaning up, you don't realize how true this is until you are a parent, becuase most of what you do is clean up messes.

As much as you don't know what your doing at times neither do they.

You know what you want, and they know what they want sometimes we get lucky and it's the same thing, but most of the time it is opposite.

Motherhood is quite possibly the most important thing I've ever done.
I could have the next Olympian, the next president, the child who finds a cure to an illness, YOUR kids could be that too, treat them as such.

So stay calm. It's likely your house will be a mess for the next 18+ years but it will be worth it.
Your child needs a cheerleader much more then they need someone telling them all the things they do wrong.
Be there and let the little things go there are so many more important things to focus on, like trying to keep your one year old from hitting all the keys on your keyboard haha..

Until next time give your kids a big hug and kiss and know that one day you will miss the little finger prints everywhere.